Happy Lunar New Year to everyone!!



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When i saw uncle today, i was wondering whether had he change? Is he still the same? Or he did change to better than last time? He does alot thing hurt my grandmum n my family before. 9 years ago, his family n he were stay at Sabah. During my Form 4, they whole family sudden move back to my home. From the time onwards, everything have changed. Everyday saw my grandmum upset, my cousin and aunty lost their hope and lost trust in him.

I admit that i really hate him. I don't know how to forgive him what have he does to my family. After 5 years i think, he had change.. During my grandfather funeral, i can sense he did put effort to buil trust in everyone. However, thing wasn't last long. Last year, he had went back his old path once again. I was upset and asked God, is it really no more change? Guess what? After 1 year which is today, my attitude was changed when i saw my uncle.

Holy spirit has reminder me about sermon on last friday. If i didn't take initialty to call him, how do i set an example to my other family member? Is he no deserve for another chance? I really thankful for God change my heart and attitude. I didn't feel any bitterness or hate, but God give me peace. I believe that God is in working now.

Was attend service @ Touch Centre in the evening. Today sermon was interesting and reminder me about my relationship with my family member. Its talk about express love, take initiative and discipline wisely to our loved one. Frank speaking, my parents and i are hardly communite even though we are care and love each other. But, we don't know how to express our love to each other. In past one year, i had neglect my family. I wasn't spend much time with them. Sometime, i asked myself what is mean home to me? Am i not miss them? Will it be any change? By God's grace, i believe that surely it wil change. When i in trouble, 1st thing come into my mind was "Home". Because home is a place let us feel safe and comfort. I'm glad God has blessed me with 2 family, natural family and spiritual family.

2 more days, CNY is coming soon. I'll be going back to hometown. Pray that it will be a fruitful trip for me. One of my new year resolution is breakthrought in relationship with family and others.

Think about 3 weeks never blog le, started lazy again..

Recently, i was bothering by other thing beside work. My heart has been shaken, my mind has filled with many question. I asked God and prayed about it, but yet have any answer from Him in past few days. But, God had spoken to me during yesterday service, "Wait". He want me learn to patient and enjoy the proceed upon waiting for His timing. I'm impatient person, i would like have an instant, how can i be a patient person? I was wondering and puzzled. I'm keep praying and asking God for His guidance on it. Whatever, i know that God's preparation for sure is the best! ^^

Waiting....